Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!
- Psalm 27:14
I am not sure yet but there will be a big decision I need to think, rethink and rethink again. It will be for myself (something part of my "upgrade") and for my family as well. Maybe you already have an idea but I believe, I will be eating what I've said before. But again, it will be something better. And, I'm not yet sure.
It is not easy to choose a decision that will benefit a lot. I need a lot of courage to take plunge into it. Tons of courage are needed because it will somehow affect a lot: family, friends, people who have known me (others have forgotten me) and the likes.
I also tried and tested my courageous acts in some many ways. When my mother was on a brink of danger in 2011, our family was really courageous to face it. With lots of prayers and optimism, my mother became better and stronger up until now! When I started my M.A. studies in 2013, I was also thinking if it was a good idea. I even had a bad start with my grades, but with courage to face all the challenges given to us by my dear professors, I made it with flying colors (at least!).
I still remember the time that I became really courageous while fighting with my kababatas. I became a victim of bullying here in our village because I was touted to be gay. In every corner of our village, even in our street, I was blubbered, disgusted, mocked and played fun with the bastards. No choice about it, I just face them but without saying any words. I just let them poking fun at me because at the end of the day, I will be the one who's going to be on top.
I am courageous. In all problems, it is easy to say that I am prepared but again, I will be prepared because I have the courage!
Toodles!
Toodles!
