The Marky Mark: The Things I Remember About You

You would never know how much I am so proud of our deep kind of friendship. Nearly ten years of fun and laughter, sad and sorrow, intrigues and controversies (hahaha!), nothing beats the friendship that we do have. I am so excited to make a blog post exclusively for you, since it is your birthday! And every time we see each other, all that we do is always talk and talk about the past, the present and the future of our lives.

For this blog post of mine to your life, let us have a "time travel" for the wackiest, saddest and most amazing things happened in both of us and with our other friends as well. As I saw your Facebook page, most of our dear college friends remember your birthday as a "TV special," since you are the only PLMayer who once celebrated his birthday on the rooftop gym of the Avancena High School (I don't know but so far, that's what I know).

Your 19th birthday. July of 2007 (?)

Let's begin our time travel with this picture:

I remember the days that you were striving in studying. There were moments that you did not know where to get money for your stuff. You needed to have a part-time job just to suit your basic needs and of course, your education. And we, as your friends, come to the rescue. This was taken in one of our college days and from the looks of it you were happy even if problems were coming on your way during those times. I've seen you doing so many things from being a working student in a fast food chain, in a hamburger stand and a member of the panel of judges in a national lottery draw just for money. Now look at you, my friend! You've been to so many places and have so many things you wished you had before and now it's in your hands. Sometimes, I feel envy in you with your travels in and out of the metro but you told me that I should be inspired because all of those hardships that you've done were all paid off. Now, you have a very good job and a master's degree (here we go again) is waiting for us to happen!

This was taken in Gusaling Katipunan, near the library and I asked you to pause on a floor polisher. After I took that picture, all of us (Kenneth, Llewy and I) burst into laughs because of you. I still remember the time you were being poked fun by our classmates. One example would be our best buddy. The time that you had your hair cut off and turned into semi-bald hairstyle, he was so shocked seeing you like that and he tagged you as "Bibeth!" I didn't know if you were offended or not and we didn't see that you were hurt. And so, our other friends called you "Apo Bibeth" since we made a so-called clan. And another thing was, they were making fun of you because of your skin color. During our first days of college, I would be very honest that it  your skin color was the first to be noticed by many. And I was part of those people saying not-to-nasty-but-still-offending remarks about you (sorry!). But now, look at you! You are a dashing debonair! Even though you gained so much weight, still you look nice and presentable in front of your students or every time we meet! You're no longer "Bibeth!" but "bet na bet!"

These are your pictures with some of our friends and I remember you for being too close to each and everyone. Some say you were very touchy; others were saying you're too sweet. Whatever they say, those are true (except for the touchy issue!). You've touched our hearts and our lives because of your funny antics (Ma'am, where's the beach [but pronounced differently]) and your leadership skills when you became our Block President. You've managed us so much that our Christmas Party was probably one of our most memorable parties. And yes, the culminating activity which was your idea, too! No wonder most of your friends and students applauded you in whatever you are doing. Just ignore those people who wants to put you down, the most important thing is that you are doing the good thing!

Here you are, embracing someone in which we don't know. Anyways, I am so happy for what you are right now. You're already teaching in college and began making your name (although there are still rumors, controversies and intrigues hooked with your name, hehehehe!) at the academe. I am one of the people, especially your barkadas, who is so happy for what you've reached and achieved. From the time you were nobody, you are now considered somebody in your own league! I think that with those moments you've had before, lessons have learned and still you are learning from it.

You are no longer Marky, who was once called by our bully classmate "Epson" because of you putting yourself in the scene and by someone who has a very funny voice, screaming you out "umalis ka nga dito!" and the guy who was just only saying goodbye to his friend but unknowingly banged himself in one of the tubes in Round Table. You are now the Marky which I consider my best friend. Good luck to your dreams, aspirations and most of all, love life! Hahahaha!!!

Happy 24th Birthday, Mark Lester Alipio Pabilando. May God bless you with so much fun, joy, blessings and unlimited happiness in your life.

WOW!!!

Happy Birthday Marky!!! We love you!!!

Toodles!!!

The King of Comedy is Part of Our Lives

As of this writing, the King of Comedy has already laid to his final resting place at the Heritage Park in Taguig City. I was eagerly watching together with my mother and I really feel the solemnity and at the same time, melancholy of the whole scenario, in which I never expected that. Dolphy is at the scene, in which we used to see him giving us a hearty laugh because of his greatness in comedy. But now, I don't know and we don't know where we will lead after this. Privately, the interment was done with a simple march, opening of casket, buckets of tears, flying of doves and the most important part of all but the saddest part, the laying of the remains of the King to his niche. As what his son Eric Quizon had said in one of the eulogies they had celebrated for him, "Comedy is dead. Long live comedy!"

Sayang Mang Dolphy, we never met inside of this church!

I could say that we have the same denominator of the King. How could I be so proud to say that we are both devotees of Our Mother of Perpetual Help in Baclaran. I am just an ordinary devotee so I traverse the thickness of people every Wednesday, while he is the King so he goes every Tuesday night or midnight to Wednesday. I only started in 2009; probably he started long way ago. And our one common thing, we know the prayers included in the novena. Both of us highly believe in the powers of prayers especially to Our Mother of Perpetual Help. Since I learned that Dolphy was also one of the known showbiz folk who was a devotee, I was wishing if I could see him. Sadly, no chances was happened. I know in my heart that whenever I go to Baclaran just to say my prayers and make a wish to Our Mother, he will surely be part of it. And the whole Baclaran community will surely miss him, being part of Her prayerful devotees.

The Puruntong Family

The Kosme Family

Dolphy became part of our own homes, too. I would ask my parents if they were watching John en Marsha, but said not really much. RPN 9 during my childhood days replayed some of the best scenes of the longest running sitcom in Philippine television. My brother, who has autism, was so fixated with Channel 9 andevery afternoon, we were watching that together. He even continuously imitating the famous line of John Puruntong's mother-in-law, Dona Delilah "Kaya ikaw John, magsumikap ka!" Numerous people from all walks of life have said that the Puruntong family had been mirrored as what the Filipino family is. And for almost two decades of giving us an idea of what the Filipino family is, through thick and thin, John Puruntong became part of our lives. By giving us lessons of struggling, we were inspired and kept on moving forward despite problems coming along the way. The sitcom ended in 1990 and I never had any idea which I remember (not before the replays were made). Speaking of the word "along," early 90s was the beginning of another family sitcom made exclusively to the King of Comedy, Home Along Da Riles. I still remember the schedules of this sitcom: first it was every Wednesday 8:00 pm then changed to Thursday with a same schedule. Same concept as of his most successful sitcom, the difference is the location of the story, the side of the tracks. I can still remember the names of the kids of Mang Kevin Kosme: Bill, Bob, Bing and Baldo, together with Estong as their cousin. And also Aling Azon as Mang Kevin's former-lover-turned-sister-in-law-turned-wife (Mang Kevin's wife is Aling Azon's twin sister Sion), Maybe, Roxanne, Mang Richie and so much more. The lessons of having a very positive outlook in life though living in degrading life was the main focal point of the show. And for the next eleven years, the Kosme family became part of every Filipinos. Probably your family has the same thing as what Mang Dolphy had in TV.

His death's cause was due to his prolonged pneumonia that became chronic obstructive pulmonary disease and also because of acute renal disease. He was 83 and on July 25th, he would have been 84. Others have said that reaching that kind of age is already a bonus. But I guess for Dolphy, he still have a lot of things to be done despite of his old age. He truly believes that the whole nation still needs him to entertain us. He has been part of our daily lives since 1946, and for almost seven decades of entertaining us, he done it all greatly. July 10th, I was at home with my parents and my sleeping brother when I saw on DZMM Teleradyo that the Comedy King is already dead. Right before that news, I only heard from 24 Oras that the health condition of the King is doing great and comes to an OK status. Maybe God has the best thing in His mind and He then maybe prepared us to this situation. The atmosphere in the entertainment industry is totally different seeing different celebrities crying and reminiscing the times they were together with the King of Comedy. And also added to the atmosphere were millions and millions of fans pouring their love and support to the immediate family that Dolphy left here on earth. We know down from here that you are so happy that the Lord is already seeing you and being with you. You are now on what we know here as the "happiest and most peaceful place" everyone could see soon. 

I am one of the millions of Filipino bloggers who are now writing about the King of Comedy. Each message of the bloggers has something to do with how deeply we love Dolphy. For me, I would end my post with one of the songs from the Novena to Our Mother of Perpetual Help entitled "Mother of Christ:"

Mother of Christ, Mother of Christ

What shall I ask of thee

I do not sigh for the wealth of earth

For the joys that fade and flee

But Mother of Christ, Mother of Christ

This do I long to see

The bliss untold which your arms enfold

The treasure upon your knee

Mother of Christ, Mother of Christ

I toss on a stormy sea

Oh, lift your Child as a beacon light

To the port where I fain would be

And Mother of Christ, Mother of Christ

This do I ask of thee

When to voyage is over, O stand on the shore

And show Him at last to me

I made the last two stanzas of the song in boldface because Dolphy already reached his last journey. And surely, Our Mother of Perpetual Help is waiting for him, standing on the shore and showing Jesus Christ to him. How I wish I am singing this beautiful song with the King of Comedy.

Yes, there would never be another great name as the King of Comedy. There is only one Dolphy! Thank you for the laughs, the tears, the joy and of course, the entertainment you've shown to us. You're surely part of our lives forever!

Toodles, Mang Pidol!

1928 - 2012

Sa Hindi Ko Maintindihang Dahilan

Hehehe... Parang title lang ng isang teleserye sa ABS CBN no? Bigla na lang akong napasulat ng may ganitong klaseng title dahil lamang sa isang bagay na bigla ko na lang inalala.

Dumaan ako sa isang pagsubok sa hindi ko maintindihang dahilan. As in hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ganoong klaseng problema ang mayroon ako noon. Pinipilit kong intindihin sa sarili ko pero may lumalaban sa loob ko. May mga bagay na pumipigil na dapat tama na, tapos na, wala na akong magagawa pero ganoon pa rin. Ipinapasa-Diyos ko na ang lahat pero ganoon pa rin. Nagtatanong ako sa sarili ko, deserve ko ba ito? May problema ba sa akin? Lahat kaya ng tao, may ganitong problema rin? Ano bang problema sa akin? Karma ko ba ito? Hindi ko alam kung tanong ko ba ito sa sarili ko, o tanong ko ba ito sa Kanya?

Isang kaibigan lang ang nakapagpatino sa akin. Sa sobrang lugmok ko, bigla na lang akong napaiyak. Ngunit hindi lamang iyon ang pagkakataong umiyak ako dahil may nararamdaman akong mabigat sa puso ko, maraming beses na. At sa pagiging emotional ko, hindi na siya maganda. Hindi na siya nakakatulong at lalong-lalo nang hindi na siya nakakatuwa. Lahat na lang ng mga nangyayari sa buhay kong hindi maganda, kailangan kong harapin sa pamamagitan muna ng pag-iyak. Nakakapagod na rin mag-isip ng mga tamang solusyon na kailangan pa talagang haluan ng mga luha. Kung magpapatalo ako sa mga emosyon ko pagdating sa lahat ng mga bagay, wala ring mangyayari sa huli. Lagi akong talo, lagi akong lagapak, lagi akong kawawa. At hindi talaga siya maganda lalo na sa isang katulad ko na dapat ang ipinapakita, malakas ako sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay. Hindi ka tao kung hindi mo kakayanin ang isang problemang alam ng Diyos kung bakit Niya ito sa iyo ibinigay.

Pero kapag sobra namang dami, kahit anong ipilit mo, minsan iisipin mo na lang ding tumigil na. Puwedeng titigil ka muna sa mga nakasanayan mong gawin. O sa mas malalang sitwasyon na ititigil mo na ang buhay mo dahil hindi mo na kaya. Nagkaroon ako ng ganyang klaseng sitwasyon na sa sobrang dami, bukod sa pag-iyak, gusto ko ng tumigil sa kung ano ang ginagawa ko ngayon. Marami nga akong kaibigan pero gusto ko man silang sabihan ng problema, oo't makikinig lang sila at magbibigay ng payo pero hanggang doon lang. Ayoko rin namang makasira ng moment na mga kaibigan ko na masasaya't kumpleto na ang buhay. Ayoko na rin umabot sa puntong kailangan kong magpapansin para na sa akin ang atensyon at ako naman ang pakinggan ninyo. Kung may problema ako, kung kakayanin ko namang solusyonan, siguro sa akin na lamang muna iyun. Kung hindi ko na kaya, ewan ko na lang. Nakakahiya rin naman kasi na nag-iiyak ako sa harap ng mga kaibigan ko.

Sana kung anong mayroon sila, mayroon din ako. Gusto ko lang naman na maging masaya. Ang mga opportunities, sana dumating na rin sa akin. Ang isang bagay na pinakahihintay ko, sana dumating na. Kasi gusto ko lang naman sumaya. Hindi ako naiinggit dahil isang malaking kasalanan ang magkaroon ng inggit at para maiwasan, kailangan kong gawin ang mga tamang gawain sa buhay. Maraming salamat sa mga kaibigan ko dahil laging sa oras na ganito, nandiyan sila. Masarap na sa pakiramdam kapag nagtatanong sila ng "okay ka lang ba?" at doon at bigla na lang akong napapaiyak. Doon ko napapatunayan na kahit hindi ko sila kaano-ano, ay handa silang magtanong sa iyo kung maayos ba ako o hindi. At higit sa lahat, nandiyan ang ating mahal na Panginoon na laging handang makinig at magbigay ng kung ano ang nararapat sa iyo. Siya na talaga ang bahala sa lahat.

Ako maayos na ako! At alam ko na rin ang dahilan kung bakit ganoon. Okay na siguro kung hindi ko nararamdaman ang care mo basta ang importante nandiyan ka lagi sa tabi ko. Maraming, maraming salamat!

At sa susunod Ziegrey Oris Balota, hindi lahat ng problema dapat iniiyakan. At marunong ka dapat maghintay at kung sakaling darating ang panahon na ikaw naman ang kakailanganin, huwag maghintay ng kapalit. Hayaan mong ang Diyos ang bahala sa isang magandang bagay na ginawa mo, sa kaibigan mo man o sa kapamilya!

"For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise." - Hebrews 10:36

Salamat sa pagbabasa...

At toodles!!!

Doors

Doors

Why do there have to be doors

'Cause when you walked right out that doors of mine

It made me wonder why there are tears

Where is the end to all of these tears

Where's the face that use to cheer me up

Girl, that makes me wonder

Why does my heart just keep on beating

Why do my arms just keep on reaching

To someone who's no longer there

What can I say besides I'm sorry

What can I say to change your mind

What can I do to make tomorrow yours and mine

Chairs

Why do there have to be chairs

It shows its empty now

There's no one there

It really makes me wonder

Why does my heart just keep on beating

Why do my arms just keep on reaching

To someone who's no longer there

What can I say besides I'm sorry

What can I say to change your mind

Why do I keep on holding on

A chance you'll walk back through the door

When my heart knows there's no hope anymore

Why do there have to be doors

Why do there have to be doors

:(

If Ever You're In My Arms Again

It all came so easy

All the lovin' you gave me

The feelings we shared

And I still can remember

How you touch was so tender

It told me you cared

We had a once in a lifetime

But I just couldn't see

Until it was gone

A second once in a lifetime

Maybe too much to ask

But I swear from now on

If ever you're in my arms again

This time, I'll love you much better

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time we'll never end

I'm seein' clearly

How I still need you near me

I still love you so

There's something between us

That won't ever leave us

There's no letting go

(No letting go)

We had a once in a lifetime

But I just didn't know it

'Til my life fell apart

A second once in a lifetime

Isn't too much to ask

'Cause I swear from the heart

If ever you're in my arms again

This time, I'll love you much better

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time we'll never end

We'll never end

My love will never end

'Cause we've got the best of romances

Deserve second chances

I'll get to you somehow

'Cause I promise now

If ever you're in my arms again

This time, I'll love you much better

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time we'll never end

If ever you're in my arms again

This time, I'll love you much better

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time we'll never end

This time we'll never end

This time we'll never end

:(

At 87, Do I Still Look Okay?

Let's have some good vibes... :)

Earlier, before going home, my friends and I went to SM Southmall to eat our lunches and have some bonding time of window shopping. My beautiful friend is looking for a power suit that she will use sometime this month. And with the brainy powers of my best buddy and I in terms of clothing, wardrobe and apparels (in short, fashion!), we helped her with ease and she gained some ideas on what to put on. We were at the jeepney when an old woman stretched her arms and ask for a ride going to our same destination. My best buddy and my beautiful friend tried to help her since she was on her age not to typical to load alone on a public transportation. She thanked us appreciatively and started talking to us. Next to her on our seats was another old lady in her late sixties. She told us, "mas matanda pa pala ako sa kanya." We insisted a question to her, "bakit po, Lola? Ilang taon na po siya?" She answered us with a responsive one, "mga nasa 69 na." The first old lady who went down from our jeepney also needed an accompaniment because she was also alone. Then we asked her, "kayo po Lola, ilang taon na po kayo?" We were delighted with her answer, "87 years old." We only said one known interjection, "Wow!"

She boasted to us that she still had the best memory in her head. She can still remember the time she graduated with a bachelor's degree of nursing at the University of the Philippines and she also pursued her graduate studies at U.P. with a master's degree in Public Health. She used to be a nurse in Manila Doctor's Hospital, Mary Johnston Hospital and other hospitals in Manila. And we were also in high spirits when she told us that she used to work as a nurse in the United States and Saudi Arabia. She was Top 6 in the local nursing board exam, in 1949. It was also a small world because some of her grandchildren studied in our institution where we belong to. But it was so long ago that her grandchildren were already professionals by their own. And yes, she only lives just a stone throw away from our institution. She told us that if we have time, we'll just try to visit her at her abode somewhere in BF Homes. And with her sharp memory, she knows the exact address of her residence, together with the house number, street name and the name of the village. Her name was Lola Lydia and I'm so happy to meet someone like her, whom at her age of 87 still rocks!

I heard so many stories about having that kind of age and still alive and kicking! My only grandmother, who lives in Binangonan, Rizal is already 95 years old, just five years before she becomes a centenarian! Even though she has loosened skin because of her old age, and already using a wheelchair because of her weak bones and muscles, still her mind is as sharp as a pencil. She still knows the names of my mother and my two uncles, though having difficulties with our names as her grandchildren and great-grandchildren. The owner of the country's number one book store simply called National Book Store is indeed having an age of 90+ still managing it. She even handles the distribution of the books at their warehouse and does so much stuff for her business. And I remember the time that while my mother, my brother and myself eating in Goldilocks in SM Southmall, we were amazed that a 95-year-old old woman was celebrating her birthday. Many stories have been told, some were women, some were men, and some were partners having the same age and still having a good time together. Now, if I reached the same age of Lola Lydia of 87, do I still look okay?

I am in my near 25 and still I feel something okay. I tried having executive check up last summer vacation and all of the results were okay. The organs are good except one time that my blood pressure went up high to 150/110. It was not really normal for a person having this kind of age because I am still young. What Lola Lydia told us about her secret on living a life that is healthy and strong was eating the right kind of food, exercising, staying away from vices and the best thing, always being happy! She is correct! I always say that I wanted to reach 100 years old not thinking of what's going to happen with my physical characteristics, as long as I am going to see the changes of the world for the next 75 years. It might be hard but it's a good thing unlike others whom at the tender ages of 30, 40 or 50 years dies because of natural death or by means of accidents and whatever.

Vice Ganda wanted to die at an early age of 40, but Mama Kris Aquino asked her if he could add five (5) more years to his life. Vice Ganda reluctantly said okay so he was okay to rest himself in peace at the age of 45. My co-teacher once said that she wanted to exit in this world at an early age because she doesn't want to see herself looking old. My best buddy said that it is okay for him to live until 50 years old because he wanted to die fresh and youthful-looking (hahaha!). For me, I would like to see the changes that might happen in our world. I want to see if flying cars can be really true. I want to see the changes of my country and the people. I want to see the newest gadgets and newest computers that I could only see in science-fiction movies. And I want to see whose going to be with me as my future partner in crime. I want to see myself having a family of my own and my friends having their families of their own. I want to see what will happen in the future.

So yes, Lola Lydia. I'll try my best to be fit and healthy and happy. And I guess for that, I would have the best of my life in the next 50 to 75 years. I'll make sure that I'll reach 100. Maybe after 75 years if my blogspot is still alive, I would read this (hopefully my eyes are still okay at that time) again and see if I really achieve it! As of this moment, I'm having some difficulties about my life in which I don't want to put some words on to detail. I'm having a stressful work and I'm having problems with so many people. I don't know how am I going to deal with it but just like what Lola Lydia, Socorro Ramos and to my grandmother, they did. Looking at them, still alive and kicking, is a remarkable gift from God.

So at 25 years old? Mr. Ziegrey Oris Balota, do you still look okay? I could say no. Onward to 100!

Toodles!!!

Change Your Mind

There you are with your perfect way

You've got that little shine in your eyes

To hear one word would make my day

But there's no room for me in your life

Oh, you've got me down on my knees

Oh and in my mind I can see

How perfect everything could be

But you won't give us a try

But if I could change your mind

How would you want me?

Would you say you need me?

'Cause I need you now

I try to move on but your perfect way

Has got this little child asking why

But this world keeps spinning

As my heart stops beating

Is there still no room inside

Oh, you've got me down on my knees

Oh and in my mind I can see

How perfect everything could be

But you won't give us a try

But if I could change your mind

How would you want me?

Would you say you need me?

'Cause I need you now

If I could change your mind

(Please tell me I'm not the only one)

(Please help me believe I'm not the only one)

If I could change your mind

But if I could change your mind

How would you want me?

Would you say you need me?

'Cause I need you now

If I could change your mind

How would you hold me?

Would you stay forever?

Oh just leave me here to drown

If I could change your mind

(Change your mind)

If I could change your mind

(Change your mind)

:(

Selfish

I just don't understand

Why you're running from a good man baby

Why you wanna turn your back on love

Why you've already given up

See I know you've been hurt before

But I swear I'll give you so much more

I swear I'll never let you down

'Cause I swear it's you that I adore

And I can't help myself babe

'Cause I think about you constantly

And my heart gets no rest over you

You can call me selfish

But all I want is your love

You can call me hopeless (hopeless)

'Cause I'm hopelessly in love

You can call me unperfect

But who's perfect

Tell me what do I gotta do

To prove that I'm the only one for you

What's wrong with being selfish?

I'll be taking up your time

Until the day I make you realize

That for you're there could be no one else

I just gotta have you for myself

Baby I would take good care of you

No matter what it is you're going through

I'll be there for you when you're in need

Baby believe in me

If love was a crime

Then punish me, I would die for you

'Cause I don't want to live without you

Oh what can I do?

You can call me selfish

But all I want is your love

You can call me hopeless (hopeless)

'Cause I'm hopelessly in love

You can call me unperfect

But who's perfect

Tell me what do I gotta do

To prove that I'm the only one for you

Why do you keep us apart?

Why won't you give up your heart?

You know that we're meant to be together

Why do you push me away?

All that I want is to give you love

Forever and ever and ever and ever

You can call me selfish

But all I want is your love

You can call me hopeless (hopeless)

'Cause I'm hopelessly in love

You can call me unperfect

But who's perfect

Tell me what do I gotta do

To prove that I'm the only one for you

Selfishly I'm in love with you

'Cause I've searched my soul

And know that it's you

Selfishly I'm in love with you

'Cause I've searched my soul

And know that it's you

Selfishly I'm in love with you

'Cause I've searched my soul

And know that it's you

To prove that I'm the only one for you

So what's wrong with being selfish, selfish, selfish...

So what's wrong with being selfish...

:(

Wait For You

I never felt nothing in the world like this before

Now I'm missing you

And I'm wishing that you would come back through my door

Why did you have to go?

You could have let me know

So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance

With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand

And all my tears, they keep running down my face

Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you want it to be

So baby, I will wait for you

'Cause I don't know what else I can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me

(How could you forget about me?)

You got me feeling crazy (crazy)

How can you walk away?

Everything stays the same

I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that

Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me

Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start all over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance, I can love you right

But your telling me it won't be enough

So baby, I will wait for you

'Cause I don't know what else I can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside

That's not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you

Baby I will wait for you

If it's the last thing I do

So baby, I will wait for you

'Cause I don't know what else I can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll be waiting

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