The first quarter of my life is already done. My first 25 years of my life became a whirlwind, a roller-coaster, a so-called topsy-turvy kind of adventure. I've experienced great things, either the highest or the lowest, failures and successes, It was indeed a life well-lived, well if I would tell it, it really was!
I think it was a really good thing to say that I really need to act maturely enough. Facing trials in life is not new to me. There were even moments that I wanted to stop (if you know what I mean) because trials that I received were like raindrops, non-stop. But if I have done that, I am the loser because I quit.
Yes, 25 years have passed and I asked myself, did I learn from those years of my life? Probably not because since then, I am like this. It's time for me to have some realizations in life in which they could be the greatest lessons I never knew I already got it.
1. That dreams really come true if you are doing it - I was young when I dreamt of being a teacher because of a game, my little friends and I were playing. When I went to college, my dream was about to happen and in 2009, I became a full-fledged teacher. Though I had bumps and bruises along the way, it didn't bother me to push through. This is what I always keep in my mind: "Once a teacher, always a teacher!" The dream of which studying in my dream university became true just this year. It was a part of my plan to pursue my studies again but this time, and wholeheartedly in the school in which I've been wanting to go to. The night when I saw the very good news that I was accepted in my chosen program is indeed "a dream turned into a reality." So far, I am doing great. A bit disappointing in some cases but having this dream not only in front of you but already have in you is a spectacle in my life!
2. That I am gaining weight - And it was a no joke at all. Maybe because of stress which I always have in my present work, to bust it down is to have a "stress eating method." I always count on my dear friends to come with me eating out just to release the stress I had on that day. Turns out that it was a no joke, really, at all! I always command myself that I need to work on it, by means of exercising, eating small amount of food and thinking ahead without stress, but I can't and I don't. Look at the picture, it seems that almost 50% of the entire picture is enveloped by my body. It's time for me to wake up that it is really scary and unhealthy to be an obese person.
3. That I forgot to make myself happy - And it is because I am dedicating my happiness to other people. Just to make other people happy, I create jokes to be laughed about. I also make a very nice move just to make some people happy like surprises on their birthdays, and other things. I don't know if it is a disease or whatever but by trying to make my dear friends, or loved ones be happy, I'll do it to them 100%. Apparently, it was my own happiness which I forgot to do. I guess the reason why I'm getting a lot of weight is because eating is my happiness. Though there's nothing wrong with it but if it is too much, it is too much. I'm still thinking of other things, or probably an event in my life that will make me feel happy. If that so, when will that happen?
4. That I never had a vacation and I don't even know what vacation is - I thought this year was my very first time to experience air travel and going to one of the best destinations here in the Philippines but it was not pushed. My dream vacation is to go to a place which no one was unable to find and stay. I wish of going to a fine sand beach, with a perfect of the sunset and a perfect spot for beach party at night. With or without booze, I can have a happy time, thus my perfect vacation. Overseas, I really wanted to go first in Hong Kong to experience world-class shopping then going to Europe to visit beautiful and historical places like the Vatican, Paris and London.
5. That my students love me - It was a beautiful experience of giving me a surprise birthday party by my loving Grade 9 - Newton. First thing in the morning, my Grade 9 - Dalton sang to me their version of the birthday song, starting with a knock-knock joke. Followed by my another Grade 9 - Einstein, which they gave me another knock-knock joke. And then my Grade 9 - Newton, put a drama on their surprise to me, telling that something had happened in our room. Turns out, an unforgettable surprise treat from them. Even though I give them a snob, or I give them hard activities (which in return, they do it nicely), or even shouting at them, my Grade 9 students still love me!
6. That my patience can be really tested and be limited (at times) - I just don't know but my patience has a mind on its own. Or maybe it just choose a person on when it will be shortened. A recent example of testing of patience happened during one of my classes. My nerves came up to its boiling point to this person that without any hesitations, I touched him badly. I am too apologetic for it, but I can't help it. The student is disrespectful, do you think you will just stand there doing nothing? I am supposedly the master inside of the classroom but without respect showing towards me, my patience would really be tested and shortened. And it happened during the most important event of my life. I hate them! Up until eternity! They put me into shame because it was my impatience gone wrong.
7. That there are moments that you've been taken for granted - This might be a very critical one but I've been into a situation that I really felt no importance in friendship. I don't want to put into words why did I feel that but I guess because of me, being very generous and kind, I am always being victimized by it. I still don't know if you still remember but you don't even dare to ask how am I doing? It was really a very bad experience especially to some people who you've been friends. The best thing to do: just forget them because they don't even bother to look back.
8. That laughing is the best medicine, no doctor's prescription needed - Whenever I am with my friends, when my mother cracks joke to us, when I watch Vice Ganda's videos and films, Mr. Bean's timeless tales, and my recent addiction to Ihaw Na of Jayson Gainza and when I listen to my students' wacky banters, I laugh. I laugh because there are funny antics being thrown. I laugh because it gives me a beautiful mindset. I laugh because I love to laugh. It gives me relaxation, no doubt about it. But laughing is not yet medically and scientifically proven to medicate your ailments. Just try to laugh non-stop, you'll surely ease the pain you have.
9. That Star Cinema is indeed the country's biggest film production outfit - It really is one of my dilemmas but no doubt, Star Cinema brings out the best stories in whatever genre. It seems that they are the only film production outfit in the Philippines, which in one month, they put out two to three films. Good thing that they are now producing films not in terms of box-office returns but according to their magical stories. These stories will surely be remembered by people from generations to generations. Bet you, their films will be considered new classics in Philippine cinema!
10. That I have the versatility in language, meaning whether in English or in Filipino - It was my first year teaching regular Filipino and this time, in high school. Admittedly, I'm having a hard time especially teaching Noli Me Tangere which hardcore Filipino is mentioned in every lines. That's why I don't know if my students are learning from me. And I don't know if I am doing my best in teaching Filipino to my students. But as I go along, I see its importance and its beauty. Importance in a sense that it is our language that we need to prosper and being adamant in different settings and beauty because of its colorful vocabularies, which is really good to listen and to study deeply. August is considered "Buwan ng Wika." Though our school wasn't able to celebrate it, we truly felt the presence of the distinguishing ideals of the Filipino language. I am reading Noli Me Tangere, but I apologize I am reading its English version.
11. That time is truly gold - I do have issues regarding time management. The recent vacation I had was only dedicated with watching TV, Facebook, Twitter and other forms of the Internet. At the same time, I am eating. Not knowing that I am wasting my time doing nothing instead of finishing my tasks. Just like now, I am procrastinating, quickly finishing my critique and research paper. The result, half-baked kind of work. When it comes to procrastinating, or cramming during studies, I am truly one of the followers of it. It was my attitude. Maybe it is time for me to look on time more valuable than before. It is truly a very golden treasure that is hard to harvest or to find. Gradually, I am going to correct my time management so that stress will not followed through.
12. That the answer to the question "Bakit Hindi Ka Crush ng Crush Mo?" is still unresolved - I have crushes before in which it turns to be nothing. And yes, I am one of the "kabataang Pinoys" which I look at the idea of crush as the idea of love and thereafter. It really breaks my heart when I never see my crushes. It really stoops my pride every time I see my crush together with another person (a girl, or a guy?). The title suggests, why does my crush doesn't have any crush on me? There are lots of answers but I still don't know the perfect one, or the suited one. Maybe, it is not for me. Or it is really for me, but fate have said, it's time for them to settle. That leads me to being alone. Now the question is, "bakit hindi ka crush ng crush mo?" Simple answer (or a hypothetical answer, if that may sense), "Eh hindi, eh!" "Ganoon talaga eh!"
13. That being with friends on a roadtrip is priceless! - It is an exciting journey of having roadtrips with your friends. I'm not saying it's not okay to have your family in your journey but I guess, having fun with your friends inside the car is truly an understatement. As much as we wanted to have one huge car that can fit ten or twelve people, we can. We can actually use bus or a coaster so that all of us are in one vehicle. Then the focal point or the highlight of the trip, nonsense and make-sense talks, opinions, funny antics and food! With my dear friends, it will never be out of style.
14. That fashion is meant for comfort before style - I just don't understand why this principle in fashion design is not sometimes being followed by world-renowned fashion designers. Just for the sake of artistic sense, they are creating wardrobe hardly understood by almost all. I can say that my fashion sense can be a bit underdog or even low-leveled, but as far as my background with fashion is concerned, I can have a fashionista in my heart and in my soul. If you'll ask me how do I wear such fabrics, I just go for the comfort and not for style. Mine can be a classic taste, since nothing beats it. Or somehow, I thought it was classic, but for others, it was truly a head-turning one.
15. That it's all up to you if you want to have a full-time job or to be a part-time student - I've mentioned being a teacher, being a student, and being a procrastinator. Since this was my first term in DLSU, forgive me but it really gave me a crazy-like movements in school and in the university. I don't know what to start, my works being a teacher or my works being a student? Again, as what I've mentioned, it's a matter of time management.
16. That the love story of Eric and Vincent should be emulated not by gay couples but by couples - It is not always promiscuity that gay couples are known for. It is not always about rated SPG, which is written on the lower right of your TV screen when you watch the now-classic My Husband's Lover on GMA 7. I can see the beautiful ending of their love story, but I don't know the other twists and turns of the story. Eric and Vincent, though both men can still feel love because of one reason: they are humans! They are allowed, without any gag orders or temporary restraining order, to loved and be loved. They are just being true to themselves and they are the best examples of showing what love is. I truly believe that love should not be according to any gender. Just show love, as simple as that!
17. That looks are part of personality - Truly, beauty is only skin deep. What's essential in beauty is inside of the heart. I guess that it's not only about the personality of a person, one person is attracted for but also the outside compliments. How can you have work if you're not presentable enough to your interviewer or to your future employer? How can you have friends if you look disgusted? How can you have self-confidence if you're not freshening up? They say looks can be deceiving, but take it on another perspective, grab the opportunity if you have looks. You can deceive in a good taste, believe me!
18. That morning will never be complete without a cup of coffee - Whether it is Starbucks, or Nescafe, or 3-in-1 or even Kopiko Brown Coffee brand, mornings will never be the same without sipping a hot but enticing cup of coffee. For me, I can gulp two cups of coffee because I love it. No wonder, most people stay in Starbucks (Filipinos created the notion of Starbucks as the new Jollibee) for the longest time because they can talk, they can think, they can wander, everything. But a cup of coffee that was made with a heart of your loved one is even better or more expensive than the brands. To make me awake, I drink almost two cups of coffee because, I am addicted!
19. That "KalokaLike" is the best segment of It's Showtime and "Juan for All, All for Juan" is the best segment of Eat Bulaga! - During rainy season break, it was a great time watching two of well-loved noontime shows in Philippine television. I am always waiting for these two greatest segments, the brainstormers have thought of. For It's Showtime, showing yourself to public through impersonating celebrities is their monumental achievement. Though you'll get ashamed or embarrassed from the hosts to the "Madlang People" to the judges, at least you've managed to achieve the looks of your favorite stars or personalities. For Eat Bulaga, if you want to experience laughing, the Jose, Wally and Paolo way, and putting it into a "common tao," that's Bayanihan of 'D Pipol! Especially when they make audience go berserk, the triumvirate of the streets will give surprises and money. Imagine that they give prizes that can sum up to less than P100,000.00. Another was the conversation between Bossing Vic and the trio. It was truly one hilarious afternoon on their location. And yes, bringing back the glory of classic comedic strategies on noontime shows.
20. That the PDAF should be abolished! - Not the pork, which is a food, but the money used for government projects, from the people's taxes we always contribute every pay day. Imagine the billions of pesos used for luxury and all crappy things. Corruption is indeed a joy for the abusive government officials and a drought to us ordinary Filipino taxpayers. Janet Napoles should be put not only to jail but to a prison a la Alcatraz. Jeane Napoles should be considered a true example of a "nouveau-riche" which is a disgusting act. Senators, congressmen and other top official who are using their pork barrel in their "personal" use should not be again elected in the upcoming 2016 elections. Or better yet... It should be abolished! No more further details! How I wish I joined the Million People March last Monday (part of my Week-long Birthday Celebration?) to show my support to my co-taxpayers who wants to know the real issue!
21. That the use of Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and other social media should be done responsibly, for the nth time! - I still remember an issue on creating a Twitter (parody) account of our institution. On that account, they are tweeting about the norms and cultures in our institution. Not that we know, they were already mentioning names of teachers, students and other people who used to be part of the institution. I just don't understand with their premise. They even said they will never make fun of the faculty, students and other things about the institution but I guess, they forgot it in a jiffy. Lesson from this: be responsible in using social media. We already have lots of social networking media and it can be easily accessed by anyone through their smartphones. Yes, freedom of expression is already waving through the World Wide Web, but again, responsibility is still at the background.
22. That the voice of Anne Curtis is the best - Whether you like it or not, Anne Curtis will sing for us. Anne Curtis will perform to us with her lavish renditions such as Diamonds of Rihanna, Without You by Usher and Tinamaan Ako in her glorifying act. She even toured around the nation via her Annebisyosa Concert, which started last year. And she also toured in other countries also for her Annebisyosa. It was truly her dream coming true, knowing that she always say sorry every time she performs. That's what she wants and we love her, so let her be.
23. That there is really "The Art of Letting Go" and acceptance always comes at last - There were shocking moments of news in which you're not prepared to hear, to see and even to look forward to. Especially a previous moment in which you have never been completing "The Art of Letting Go." You're still not on a perfect shape of letting go, or moving on but a news in which everybody was truly in shocked, made me trembling, shaking, and yes, crying. It's too easy to say but it's not, no questions asked. That's why in the emotional stages according to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, known as the five stages of grief, denial comes first, followed by anger, then bargaining, depression and the last part is acceptance. And it cannot be done midnight. Part of it is a very long time accepting all things you might not accept at first. Maybe, there will come a time that from your heart, you will truly deal with what really happened. It's their lives so might as well not to delve with them. Again, acceptance always comes at last!
24. That Clarity is indeed a song and not just for dancing - In its literary sense, it is a poem but for music, it is a song. Clarity, at first, might known as a dance song usually played on bars, clubs or discos (2000s, 1990s and 1980s terminologies). The tempo is really fast, the rhythm is too fast to dance but the lyrics of the song is straight-to-the-point. The scenario: this person is a part of your life in which you are so much in love with but since you're not too much important in him/her, he/she becomes useless. But still, you are wanting him/her to come back but again, its useless. Then why if your love considered a wreck, still felt he/she is the one. Then why if your love is a crazy one, still felt he/she is the reason of making it a right one. This song is a bit unclear but the message has a lot!
25. That I am no longer getting younger - There is a joke that if you reach the age of 30, you're no longer part of the calendar but with the BINGO cards. It is alright since the age group nowadays became younger. They have said that 30 is the new 20, and 40 is the new 30. Your age might be 30 but you still look younger like a 20-year-old. Honestly, I felt that I am already old due to stress from work and from other people but I still feel energetic and youthful at my present age of 26. One thing's for sure that I need to do to make my face look young is to embrace optimism and happiness. No need for any creams or vitamin supplement.
26. That love is looking for you and you should not look for love - Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy... (one of the greatest verses from the Bible about love) And I guess, the love has already found the person but the person hasn't found me, yet. I don't know, maybe that person is already there. Just like from the song, "I didn't know I was looking for love, until I found you." I believe someone out there waits for me, my destiny, my soulmate, my soon-to-be. And truthfully, you should not look for love because love will never surrender to you. If you really want to find your true, real love, be patient! Again, love is patient, love is kind.
Less than fifteen minutes from now, my first day of being a 26-year-old is about to finish. Showing appreciation is not enough to those people who appreciates and loves me. But I guess, I don't have any options but to say thank you for the love, support and patience with me.
I've realized that the most important person in my life is truly in love with me, that's God!
Thank you God for another year!!!
I miss saying this at the end of my posts... Toodles!!!
Just for today, I received my midterm exam grade and I find it not really okay. The question is really, the subject is also really hard but I made my very best to answer the query of my professor. He was right, I was just new and I really did not what the hell I was saying through my paper. It was only graded satisfactorily, so it cleared my mind that I should do something because the next exam would be "make or break!" If not successful (which I do hope it will not happen), I don't know next, maybe flying to another country to work?
It has been too long since I made a writing in my BROUHAHAS, approximately four months since I left my hobby of writing and concentrating much with my new work and new venture in my life. It shook me; it shook my sleeping nerve and I guess it's time for me to move up and it's already happening. I was forcing myself to write but sometimes, I just leave it and will never return to it and continue. Again, I will write something which favors me but again, I couldn't finish it. Something hinders me which I couldn't give a stay in front of my computer to write something.
In a span of four months, a lot of things have happened. Most of them were planned; some of them were surprises. Most of them were taken for granted; some of them were just happened. These happenings were already done which made me realized that a lot of things that come and go.
If I still have chances of writing, I better grab it! But time cannot allow me. The reason is too busy.
It has been two decades when I started studying in elementary. Malamang, halos lahat naman ng bata nagsisimula sa pre-elementary then elementary (which is now favorably known as Grade School). Maraming mga bagay ang mararanasan mo at firsts and most of them were truly worth remembering. And of course, you would never forget the teachers that most likely molded and nurtured you with quantity and quality education: moral, emotional, informative at marami pang ibang klaseng aspect. When I graduated in Grade Six in the year 2000, I thought it was only a simple graduation that finally (I even didn't think about it either), tapos na ang elementary and going to next chapter of my student life which is high school. Yun pala ang dami-daming magbabago that you wished na sana hindi ka na lang nag-high school. On those days, we were reminiscing our joyful past starting from Grade One up to our very last days of being Grade Six. Notorious to teachers, bullies to other pupils and students, crushes by him or by her, lahat ng yan mararanasan ng isang elementary student. Fast forward to 2013, I am teaching Grades Three and Four at sa halos araw-araw kong litanya sa loob ng faculty lounge at sa loob ng classroom na may mga students akong abot hanggang langit ang inis at galit ko dahil napakakulit, napakatamad at napaka-irresponsible, nagre-rewind sa akin ang aking elementary days. Then a question pops up on my mind, "naging ganyan rin ba ako or naging ganyan ba kami ng mga kaklase ko noong elementary ako?"
This blog post is about reminiscing my happiest and darkest past of my beautiful grade school years. Ang sarap lang balikan ang mga dati kong ginagawa na nakakatawa, nakakahiya, nakakalungkot at nakakaiyak na mga experiences ko with my teachers, classmates, schoolmates and the school itself. Thankful ako, sobrang-sobra, sa aking alma mater na Saint Francis School (now known as San Francisco de Sales School) for nurturing my fruitful six grade school years with so much knowledge and experiences that will surely last a lifetime. I'm going to find out if the things I have done before is as same as what my students and the other students are doing now. It could be better or it could be worse.
KULIT BATA - If I am too much irritated with those pesky children inside my classroom, I became also the favorite of my teacher when it comes to being scolded and reprimanded. Lalo na noong nasa Grade One ako. Nagalit sa akin ang adviser ko dahil simula pa lang ng klase, pawis na pawis na ako dahil sa laro. May time rin, kasama ko ang classmate ko na same wavelength ng kulit ko, dinala kami sa Guidance Counselor (during our time, when you're going to the Guidance Office, kabahan ka na!) dahil lagi na lang kaming nagkukulitan. Pinagalitan naman ako ng Grade Two adviser ko dahil lagi akong umaakyat sa High School building, which is back then bawal na bawal umakyat ang mga elementary students sa second floor ng mga buildings. Napagalitan rin ako ng Grade Two teacher ko dahil dighay ako ng dighay (burping) without saying "excuse me!" Sabi niya sa akin, "ang bastos mo naman!" At noong Grade Six ako, pinagalitan rin ako ng adviser ko dahil habang nanonood kami ng pelikulang Jose Rizal sa Multimedia Room, hindi ako nakikinig at naglalaro lang ako. Turns out, at 12 years old, pinagalitan pa rin ako. I could not compare my naughty bits to my students. Hindi ko lang din masasabi kung makulit ako, makulit sila, or same lang ang kulit namin.
TAMAD - Noong Grade Four ako, pinatawag ang parents ko dahil hindi ako gumagawa ng assignment sa GMRC. We were getting our scores and out of 10 to 15 assignments, less than 5 lang ang nagawa ko. Ayun, napagalitan na ako at the same time, pinakuha ang diary ko at nagsulat ng love letter to my parents ang aking adviser. Takot na takot akong umuwi noon from school dahil hindi ko alam kung papaano ko ito ipapakita sa parents ko. Well, wala na akong magagawa, I need to face the consequences. May tatlo akong palo sa likod ng sinturon and the following day, my mother and my sister came to school to talk to my adviser. Noong Grade Five naman ako, nagkaroon kami ng family reunion sa isang resort sa Cavite and we had an overnight stay there. Pag-uwi ko sa bahay, tinawagan ko ang classmate ko to tell what we did in our vacation. Bigla niyang sinabi sa akin na mayroon pala kaming project sa Math tungkol sa mga shapes and polygons. Sobrang gabing-gabi na noon, bumili ako ng cartolina at plastic cover para gawin ang project. Natapos ko naman siya but not in a beautiful manner. Ang masaklap, Sunday night ko siya ginawa, Monday morning siya ipapasa. Maraming beses na nangyari sa akin noong Grade School ako na tinamaan ako ng sakit ng "tamaditis." And kids, hindi maganda yun. How can you satisfy yourself with good grades if laziness comes with it?
ACHIEVER - Hindi sa pagmamayabang but naging achiever rin naman ako sa class (in my own right, haha!). Starting from Grade One to Grade Six, hindi ako nawala sa Star Section. Meaning, kasama ko ang mga honor students ng aming batch. I could also say that my grades are all good, I never had less than 85 as my grade (except MAPE and HELE, hehehe!). Noong Grade Four ako, naging achiever ako noong First Quarter, and as Top 8. Nawala ako ng Second Quarter, bumalik noong Third Quarter (I forgot na!) dahil sa tatlong Quiz Bee ako naging First Placer, at nawala ulit noong Fourth Quarter. I am not consistent, that's true! Umiiyak pa ako sa best friend ko noon over the phone dahil siya, Top 2, ako wala ni isang place sa honor roll. Speaking of First Placer sa Quiz Bee, sa tatlong subjects ako nanalo: Spelling, HEKASI and Science. Hindi ako nag-aral noon, kung baga, stocked knowledge ang ginamit (haha!) Grade Five ako, sumali ulit ako sa Quiz Bee at hindi na katulad noong Grade Four na puros first place ang nakuha ko. First Placer ako sa Science, Second Placer ako sa HEKASI, Third Placer ako sa Spelling. Grade Six, wala na! Tanging isang Quiz Bee lang ang sinalihan ko, HEKASI at hindi pa ako nanalo. Hindi rin ako nagpatalo sa mga pataasan ng scores kapag exams; magtatanungan kayo kung ano ang score mo sa English, sa Filipino, sa Science at sa kung anu-ano pang subjects. Lahat talaga ng bata, lalo na't you have something to be proud of, ganyan ang pasttime, ang magyabangan ng scores at grades. In our own little way, we are achievers!
TEACHER'S FAVORITE - I also became teacher's pet or teacher's bet or teacher's favorite: favorite pagalitan, favorite utusan at favorite pahiyain sa klase. Favorite akong pagalitan ng adviser ko noong Grade One dahil sa kakulitan ko. If I became too rowdy, papaupuin niya ako sa pinakalikod malapit sa teacher's table. I remember my Mom went to the school to talk to my teacher para lang palipatin ulit ako sa harapan dahil pinagpe-piyestahan ako ng mga lamok sa likod ng aming classroom. Favorite student ako ng adviser ko noong Grade Three dahil sunod ako ng sunod sa mga utos niya. Naging instant katulong niya ako that every time she needs something to eat, she will ask me to go to the canteen and buy her food. Favorite naman akong pahiyain ng teacher ko sa MAPE noong Grade Four. Mayroon siyang tawag sa akin (which I don't like to share it) so my classmates would have a good laugh against me. At favorite din akong pag-tripan ng teacher ko sa HEKASI noong Grade Four dahil nakakatuwa raw ako masyado. Anumang klaseng "favoritism" yan, kung deserve naman, why not. Regardless na tawagin ka mang teacher's pet or "sipsip" sa teacher, mas maganda if you're doing your work properly.
BEST FRIEND, BARKADA AND BULLIES - Lahat ng mga Grade Schoolers, naranasan magkaroon ng instant best friend (na may contract at gestures), barkada (having time with friends or one thing in common) and the dreadful bullies (tagging names, kukunin ang baon, biglaang pagti-tripan) at ako dahil naging Grade Schooler ako, naranasan ko yan. Ang kauna-unahan kong best friend ay si Dino (na ngayon, isa na siyang engineer). In everything that we do, magkasundong-magkasundo kami. There was a time na nag-away kami niyan, Grade 6 dahil biniro ko lang siya. Hindi pala nakakatawa ang joke ko so napikon. Nagkabati rin kami afterwards at nagkapatawaran sa isa't isa. Ang isa ko pang best friend ay si Meliza (na isa na ngayong successful government employee). Marami rin kaming common things that we love like slumbooks (or autograph), daily cake (Cupp Keyk na Mocha flavor, Choco Choco, and chocolate candies which I forgot the brand), Ikaw Lamang of Jaya and Janno Gibbs, and yung Grade Five na student (haha!). May time na rin na nag-away kami niyan dahil sa isang issue na kami rin naman ang gumawa. And of course, nagkaayos din. It is too hard to tell if you can create your own circle of friends at an early start but for me, nagkakaroon lang ako ng barkada kung may pare-pareho kaming gusto. Nagkaroon ako ng barkada dahil mahilig kami sa Ghost Fighter. Nagkaroon ako ng barkada dahil lagi kaming recite ng recite sa klase. Nagkaroon din ako ng barkada dahil pare-pareho kami ng crushes. May kababawan man and not so sturdy ang foundation, we didn't bother! And yes, if you have been a victim of bully, I was also became one. When in Grade One, na-bully ako ng mga kaklase ko. We were in first row and the four of them didn't talk to me for I really do not know the real reason. I was also bullied with some of my classmates in Grade Three by getting my food. I was bullied by some of my batchmates in Grade Four though hindi ko naman pinapansin dahil hindi ko naman sila kilala. And yes, I was also being bullied by some lower Grade Schoolers (nakakahiya man) and because of that, nagiging too emotional ako because of the words they were saying about me. All of those things about socializing with other kids may have certain issues: to gain friends, to lose friends and to be a victim of bullies.
THE TEACHERS - Teachers are considered the second parent of the children. After their homes, school is a place that a child can go and stay for almost half of their daily schedules. And the person responsible for them are the teachers. My teachers in Grade School were really memorable to me. Si Mrs. Kua, my Grade One adviser, ay lagi akong pinapagalitan dahil na nga rin sa sobra kong kakulitan sa klase noon. Pinaupo niya ako sa likod, pinabalik niya ako sa classroom ng Prep, dinala niya ako sa Guidance Office, pinatawag ang parents ko, the works of being a Grade One student. Pero love pa rin niya ako. Ang hindi ko makakalimutan kay Mrs. Kua ay noong nag-birthday celebration ang classmate ko at hindi niya ako binigyan ng loot bag as souvenir sa birthday. Noong tinanong na siya ng mga classmates ko kung bakit wala akong loot bag, siya pa ang galit! I only realized just for today that siguro galit na galit siya sa akin that's why hindi niya ako binigyan ng loot bag! Si Ms. Arela naman ay adviser ko noong Grade Two, na naging Mrs. Montalbo. Mataray siya at one time, sinungitan niya ako dahil nagsabi lang naman ako na nawawalan ako ng five pesos (malaking pera na yun before!). Pero she's one of the most beautiful teachers in St. Francis before. Mrs. Mendoza was my adviser in Grade Three and siya ang teacher ko na ginagawa akong utusan. Well, I like it because it's a sort of being favorite. I remember the time she was talking to my Mom. When she saw my Mom, aba'y ang sabi ay, "Good morning, Mrs. Balota, the mother of my favorite student!" Nakakahiya man pero nilunok ko na lang. Mrs. Cabilar was my adviser in Grade Four and Six and she was known in our school as the "matapang" na teacher. I remember one time, I was just walking around our school when I saw her calling a student, and then "blaagaag!" Pinalo niya sa ulo ng book ang student na tinawag niya. Well, may kakulitang taglay siguro ang bata so he deserved it. Siya rin ang adviser ko na nagpatawag sa parents ko dahil hindi ako gumagawa ng assignment. Lastly, si Ms. Guieb, ang adviser ko noong Grade 5 at siya rin ang isa sa mga teachers ko in Math for three consecutive school years (from Grades 4 to 6). Noong Grade 4 ako, malapit sa house namin ang tinitirahan niyang bedspacer so kapag may ipapadala siya sa akin ng mga lesson plans niya, ibibigay or ipapabigay ko lang din para sa kanya. Not only them, I also had other teachers na favorite ko rin like Ms. Villaflor, Ms. Ingua, Ms. Orijuela, Mr. Marfil, and so many more. I wonder kung nasaan na silang lahat. Are they also looking at my pictures that now I am also like them?
Those were the days that I'm still young and did not know the things I was doing. As a teacher in Grade School, you deal quickly with the lessons because the kids are eager to listen and learn but hard to discipline since they're kids, basically. Though I had problems before that I've faced, somehow I've outgrown it and still learning some things from it. And the sweetness of the kids, it's really irresistible! Talagang mapapayuko ka at mapapatiklop ka sa kanila that even though you're always getting angry at them, they still love you back. Revenge is somehow sweeter in Grade School because a student that you've got angry with will never think of bad things against you; rather they will say they're utmost apologies. Those were the things I would surely miss when I enter the next chapter of my teaching career.
Few days, I'll be leaving the premises of Grade School as I am now challenging myself in the world of High School. New and more matured students, higher level of learning and so much more. I don't know what's going to happen to me and to my students but I know that God put me in this because He knows that I can do it! Hindi naman ako bibigyan ng bagong sitwasyon kung hindi ako handa. I will do everything and anything for the sake of the kids and also to myself!
And also, most of my high school students became my students before, so I guess there's no problem with it (well, almost?).
I may not have a very formal training in writing but having more than 17,000 views makes my writing hobby interesting. And yes, my Brouhahas has been two years in the Internet world, giving a hearty laugh to you and an interesting stories to tell. Honestly speaking, I really do not know what to write. I cannot also give you the things that you should do to maintain this kind of blog. I do not have enough followers and I do not even know if those viewers are really reading my posts (hehehe). But I do believe in my talent, of course who couldn't agree more but myself!
I just wanted to thank my friends who always uplift my spirit in reading my posts. Though most of it has lots of grammar lapses and incomprehensible utters, it doesn't matter since I am maintaining a semi-formal (if there's such?) kind of blog. My friends whom I made my piece, my study, my topic and my idea to all of my writings here. I don't know if they really liked it; it is just that I wanted to share to the whole world how much I love them! Though I'm not really confident to share what my family is, I will make sure to make a full blast about them.
To some of the websites and other references I am using for some of my posts, thank you for somehow lending your thoughts and ideas to my blog. I am afraid too much with what we have right now as plagiarism ek-ek but of course, I am using your references with consent or permission. Without these things, my posts would not be readable and somehow interesting to read.
And of course, to all of my readers. Call me a very hands-on to my blogsite, I am always looking to the stats of my views. And it really touches my heart every time it makes the views worth a hundred to a thousand! I still remember the first years of my blog, I am wishing to have at most 2,500 views before my birthday of 2011. It didn't pursue but why should I if day-by-day, the views add up! And if the views of my posts boost up to more than 50 views, it makes me a bit proud of myself.
I just don't know but I am just thankful! Two years of writing anything is a mixture of joy and experience. I feel the joyfulness every time I publish one post to my blog. I don't know if the people will like it or not, it is what I really love the most. I learn some much from experience. Though most of my posts are about the things I had, it brings me too many lessons.
God, thank You for the gift of writing. I may need more kind of training in the near future or whatever, I promise that every piece of work of mine is always for You!
Thank you guys for making my blog worth reading!!!
I am so much in awe every time I read some trivia. And since I am an English teacher and somehow defender of the English language (well, not much), I am thriving so much with the trivia about the most beloved language in the world. Its every nook and cranny is definitely awesome and after you read it, you will definitely say "What?!?" or "Are you kidding me?!?!" Here are some of the trivia that I've been amazingly read and understood, telling me that English indeed is a wonderful and universal language!
-- The longest one-syllable word in the English language are scraunched (10 letters) and strengthed (10 letters).
-- No word in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, or purple.
-- There are only four words in the English language which end in dous: tremendous, horrendous, stupendous, and hazardous.
-- Dreamt is the only English word that ends in the letters mt.
-- Stewardesses and reverberated are the two longest words typed with only the left hand.
-- The dot over the letter i is called a tittle.
-- The combination ough can be pronounced in nine different ways. The following sentence contains them all:
A rough-coated, dough-faced, thoughtfulploughman strode through the streets of Scarborough; after falling into a slough, he coughed and hiccoughed.
-- I am. is the shortest complete sentence in the English language. Alternately, Go! can also be the shortest complete sentence in the English language.
-- The only fifteen-letter-word that can be spelled without repeating a letter is uncopyrightable.
-- Facetious, abstemious and arsenious contain all the vowels in correct order.
-- The word checkmate in chess comes from the Persian phrase shah mat, which means the king is dead.
-- The sentence the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog uses every letter in the English language.
-- The names of all the continents end with the same letter that they start with: Asia, Africa, America, Antarctica, Europe and Australia.
-- Typewriter is the longest word that can be made using the letters on only one row of the keyboard.
-- The words racecar and kayak are the same whether they are left to right or right to left, called palindrome.
-- The most commonly used letter in the alphabet is E while the least used letter is Q.
-- The oldest word in the English language is town.
-- Bookkeeper and bookkeeping are the only two words in the English language with three consecutive double letters.
-- The word strengths is the longest word in the English language with just one vowel.
-- The past tense for the English word dare is durst.
-- The word testify derived from a time when men were required to swear on their testicles.
-- 1 out of 8 letters written is an E.
-- The expression to knuckle down originated from playing marbles; players used to put their knuckles to the ground for their best shots.
-- The word almost is the longest in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order.
-- The most commonly used word in English conversation is I.
-- Skiing is the only word with double I.
-- Angry and hungry are the only words in English ending in -gry.
-- Defenselessness and respectlessness are the two fifteen-letter words with only one of the vowels, E.
-- Rhythms is the longest English word without the normal vowels: a, e, i, o and u.
-- Excluding derivatives (a word formed by derivation), there are only two words in English that end with -shion: cushion and fashion.
-- Twelve words can be formed from the word therein using consecutive letters: the, he, her, er, here, I, there, ere, rein, re, in, and herein.
-- One thousand contains the letter A. None of the words from one (1) to nine hundred ninety-nine (999) has an A.
-- Two words having all the vowels in reverse order: subcontinental and uncomplimentary.
-- The longest English word is a 45-letter word which is the name of a disease: pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis.
-- A superlatively long word of twenty-seven (27) letters having thirteen (13) vowels, which alternates consonants and vowels: honorificabilitudinitatibus.
-- There are many tongue twisters but the toughest of them all is: The sixth sick Sheikh's sixth sheep's sick.
-- Underground and underfund are the only words in English that begin and end with the letters und.
-- Euouae, a medieval music term, is the longest word in English that contains only vowels. It is also the word with the most consecutive vowels.
-- Unprosperousness, meaning not wealthy or profitable, is the longest word in English in which each letter is used at least twice.
-- Feedback is the shortest word in English that has the letters A, B, C, D, E and F.
-- Floccinaucinihilipilification is the longest word in English that does not contain letter E.
-- United Arab Emirates, a small country in the Middle East, is made up of alternating vowels and consonants. It is the longest name of a country whose letters do that.
-- Polish, is the only word in the English language that when capitalized is changed from a noun or a verb to a nationality (of the country Poland).
-- Corduroy comes from the French cord du roi or cloth of the king.
-- The slash (/) character is called a virgule or solidus. A URL uses slash characters, not back slash characters.
-- The verb cleave is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere(to hold fast or stick) and separate (to disconnect).
-- The highest scoring word in the English language game of Scrabble is quartzy. This will score 164 points if played across a red triple-word square with the Z on a light blue double-letter square. It will score 162 points if played across two pink double-word squares with the Q (10 points) and Y (4 points) on those squares. Bezique and Cazique are next with a possible 161 points. All three words score an extra 50 points for having seven letters and therefore emptying the letter rack in one go.
-- The English word with the most consonants in a row is latchstring.
-- The word robot was created by Karel Capek. It came from Czech/Slovakrobotovat which means to work very hard.
-- The only word that consists of two letters, each used three times is the word deeded.
-- A hamlet is a village without a church and a town is not a city until it has a cathedral.
-- The word karate means empty hand.
-- The word girl appears only once in the Bible.
-- Switching letters is called spoonerism. Example would be saying jag of Flapan instead of flag of Japan.
-- A, H, I, M, O, T, U, V, W, X, and Y are the symmetric capital letters in the Roman alphabet. i,l,o,t,u,v,w and x are the symmetric lower case letters in the Roman alphabet.
-- The v in the name of a court case does not stand for versus but for and (in civil proceedings) or against (in criminal proceedings).
-- The term honeymoon is derived from the Babylonians who declared mead, a honey-flavored wine, the official wedding drink, stipulating that the bride's parents be required to keep the groom supplied with the drink for the month following the wedding, that month became known as the honeymonth, hence our honeymoon.
-- The longest muscle name is the levator labiisuperioris alaeque nasi and Elvis Presley popularized it with his lip motions.
-- The longest word that can be typed using on the right hand is lollipop.
-- Skepticisms is the longest word that can be typed using alternate hands.
-- Alma mater means bountiful mother.
-- The language Malayalam which is spoken in parts of India, is the only language whose name is a palindrome.
-- The words sacrilegious and religion do not share the same etymological root.
-- The phrase sleep tight originated when mattresses were set upon ropes woven through the bed frame. To remedy sagging ropes, one would use a bed key to tighten the rope.
-- Evian spelled backwards is naive.
-- The word denim comes from deNimes, or from Nimes, a place in France.
-- Freelance comes from a knight whose lance was free for hire or not pledged to one master.
-- The term Mayday used for signaling for help after (SOS), it comes from the French term M'aidez which is pronounced may day and means help me.
-- The term devil's advocate comes from the Roman Catholic Church. When deciding if someone should become a saint, a devil's advocate is always appointed to give an alternative view.
-- When two words are combined to form a single word (motor + hotel = motel, breakfast + lunch = brunch), the new word is called portmanteau.
-- Avocado is derived from the Spanish word aguacate which is derived from ahuacatlmeaning testicle.
-- AM and PM stand for Ante-Meridian and Post-Meridian, respectively, and AD actually stands for Anno Domini rather than After Death.
-- The phrase rule of thumb is derived from an old English law which stated that you couldn't beat your wife with anything wider than your thumb.
-- Lucifer is Latin for light bringer. It is a translation of the Hebrew name for Satan, Halael. Satan means adversary, devil means liar.
--There is a word in the English language with only one vowel, which occurs six times: indivisibility.
-- The letters H, I, O and X in the Latin alphabet is the only ones that look the same if you turn them upside down or see them from behind.
-- The youngest letters in the English language are j, v and w.
-- The only capital letter in the Roman alphabet with exactly one end point is P.
-- The letter W is the only letter in the alphabet that doesn't have one syllable, it has three.
-- There are only three words in the English language with the letter combination uu: Muumuu, vacuum, and continuum.
-- The first letters of the months July through November, in order, spell the name JASON (July, August, September, October, November).
-- The Old English word for sneeze is fneosan.
-- The word boondocks (a rural area) comes from the Filipino (Tagalog) word bundok, which means mountain.
-- Speak of the devil is short for speak of the Devil and he shall come. It was believed that if you spoke about the Devil it would attract his attention. That's why when your talking about someone and they show up, people say speak of the Devil.
-- The word samba means to rub navels together.
-- The y in signs reading ye olde is properly pronounced with a th sound, not y. The th sound does not exist in Latin, so ancient Roman occupied (present day) England used the rune thorn to represent th sounds. With the advent of the printing press, the character from the Roman alphabet which closest resembled thorn was the lower case y.
-- The word set has more definitions than any other word in the English language.
-- The Sanskrit word for war means desire for more cows.
-- The ampersand (&) is actually a stylized version of the Latin word et meaning and.
-- QANTAS, the name of the Australian national airlines, is a former acronym for Queensland And Northern Territories Air Service.
-- The word byte is a contraction of by eight.
-- The word pixel is a contraction of either picture cell or picture element.
-- The naval rank of admiral is derived from the Arabic phrase amir al bahr which means lord of the sea.
-- In Chinese, the words for crisis and opportunity are the same.
-- The abbreviation for pound lb. comes from the astrological sign Libra meaning balance and symbolized by scales.
-- Sheriff came from Shire Reeve. During early years of monarchial rule in England, each shire (a country in England) had a reeve (a local administrative agent of an Anglo-Saxon king) who was the law for that shire. When the term was brought to the United States, it was shortened to sheriff.
-- The word queueing is the only English word with five consecutive vowels.
-- The word modem is a contraction of the words modulate, demodulate, thus MOdulateDEModulate.
-- The infinity sign is called a lemniscate.
-- A Blue Moon is the second full moon in a calendar month (it is rarely blue).
-- A bibliophile is a collector of rare books. A bibliopole is a seller of rare books.
-- A ghost writer pens an anonymous book.
-- The O when used as a prefix in Irish surnames means descendant of.
-- The ancient Romans built such an excellent system of roads that the saying arose all roads lead to Rome, that is, no matter which road one starts a journey on, he will finally reach Rome if he keeps on traveling. The popular saying came to mean that all ways or methods of doing something end in the same result, no method being better than another.
-- The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.
-- The right side of a boat was called the starboard side due to the fact that the astronavigators used to stand out on the plank (which was on the right side) to get an unobstructed view of the stars. The left side was called the port side because that was the side that you put in on at the port.
-- The side of a hammer is a cheek.
-- The symbol on the pound key (#) is called an octothorpe.
-- The two lines that connect your top lip to the bottom of your nose are known as the philtrum.
-- The white part of your fingernail is called the lunula.
-- The word assassination was invented by William Shakespeare.
-- The word coach is derived from the village of Kocs, Hungary, where coaches were invented and first used.
-- The word news did not come about because it was the plural of new. It came from the first letters of the words North, East, West and South. This was because information was being gathered from all different directions.
-- The world's largest alphabet is Cambodian with 74 letters.
Now, can you still love English with those nerve-wracking information??? You must!!!
How are you na, kapatid? Long time no hear ha! Kapag nagkikita tayo sa loob ng ating institution, lagi kang nakasimangot, nakanganga, saka aligaga. Paano ba yan, next year yata magkasama na tayo (sure na ba talaga) sa iisang level. I know it's going to be very happy! Kamusta si Summerita, ang aking magandang inaanak? Naglalakad na diba? Makulit na ba? Nagsasalita na ba? Madaldal na ba parang si Ninong Zieggy niya? Hay! This letter is not only about asking how are you, but a lot of things to be thankful to you! At alam mo yan!
First thing I would like to thank you sa pagiging shock absorber ko, especially last year. SUPER DOOPER ALAM MO NA YUN at ayaw ko nang i-broadcast dito sa letter ko kung ano man yun. Salamat dahil pinagalitan mo ako and at the same time, you made yourself an eye-opener to me. Alam mo kapatid, kahit alam kong puwede pa, or kaya pa, I would always think of what you told me. Ayun, in fairness naman sa akin, naka-move on na ako. Of course you would remember ang mga katagang "at least alam ko na madali akong maka-move on." Naku, nakita mo na rin akong umiyak dahil sa pesteng alam mo na rin. If you can still remember noong hindi ako napag-bigyan sa gusto kong mangyari sa akin for this year pero as usual, waley nga. And another thing sa isang recent issue sa akin na hindi naman dapat maging issue. I just became too emotional and too intimidated kasi pero you made my hopes too near. Ipinakita mo sa akin na dapat realistic din ako, and now kung hindi man or kung oo man, why not! Basta go for green pa rin, pero why not for yellow pero green pa rin at alam mo yan! I just don't know pero every time na may problem ko, you are one of the first people I can go to without hesitation. Siguro kasi sa sobrang pagka-straightforward mo kaya tuloy pakiramdam ko, refreshed and replenished ako kapag pinagsasabihan mo ako na parang subordinate, anak or someone na maliit na hindi alam ang ginagawa. Ganoon ang peg nating dalawa and I'm so thankful for that!
I am also thankful dahil finally magsasama na tayo sa iisang bubong. I don't want to bring out more dahil magkaka-idea ang ilan pero good thing na rin dahil ba-bonding tayo ng bonggang-bongga. But now, I'm already apologizing na baka mabagalan ka or mapikon ka sa akin dahil hindi ko alam kung professional ako or what. Basta Julie Girl, sabihan mo lang ako kung nawawala ako sa circulation dahil para akong minsang NGA NGA... At huwag ka ring mabahala sa akin kung nakikita mo akong nagsasalita mag-isa sa loob ng classroom dahil iyan ang aking de-stressing technique. Ang sarap mag-vent out sa hangin lalo na kapag hindi ko kailangan ng opinion.
I can't wait for our travels, gala and all. Sana payagan ka ni Pareng Onin na makapag-Thailand tayo. I always wanted to go to other places or other countries together with you guys. I can't wait for our very first Visita Iglesia 2013 this March 25th at alam mo na kung paano ang hatian natin sa food at sa parking fee. Alam mo na rin kung saan-saan tayo pupunta at kung paano ang sunduan at hatiran ng mga batang katulad niyo. Tama nga, travels could be our most luxurious treat in our friendship and mangyayari yan the soonest. Saan ba ang gusto natin? Sabi ni Tarrosing sa London raw. Sabi ni Ms. A sa Thailand or sa Singapore. Ah basta, gusto kong mag-Hong Kong. Basta may pera.
Marami ring salamat dahil parang nagmumukha kang sunud-sunuran sa mga damit na gusto kong isuot mo if there's a formal gathering that you'll attend to. For two years, Theres and yourself are two of my trusted clienteles on how you will look good in any aspect. Hindi ko makakalimutan ang unang beses na nagpakitang gilas akong damitan kayo a la Liz Uy. Sinugod natin ang bawat sulok ng 168 Shopping Mall ng Divisoria just to get what I wanted for you. Ang galing lang ng utak ko dahil alam ko na kung anong gusto kong masuot mo.
Chu-choosy ka pa ba ba Julie Girl ng iba pang mga stylist mo. Hayaan mo kapatid, nagsisimula pa lang ako pero kahit pa, maraming maraming salamat na rin dahil pinapaubaya mo sa akin ang iyong sarili on how to look good. Well, I am just suggesting but the thing is, you're taking my suggestions too seriously. Hahahaha! Looking forward for the next royal gala or royal gathering.
And siyempre, thank you for bringing us Julli Summer to our lives. Bilang pang-limang bata sa ating samahan (so far siya ang bunso, unless may sumunod agad-agad), alam na kung anong magiging attitude niyan. Isama mo pa ang mga ninong at ninang niya sa iba mo pang circle of friends, alam na alam na talaga. Hindi ko makakalimutan noong nalaman ko ang napakagandang balita with matching pagsita mo sa aking makapal na balbas at bigote. Sinabihan mo ako noon na i-shave ko ang buhok ko sa mukha dahil baka mapaglihian mo ako. Ang ganda-ganda lang ng reaksyon ko noong araw na yun dahil dinadala mo na pala for about a few months si Julli Summer na ipinangalan mo from our most favorite film, 500 Days of Summer. I can't wait for her 500 days. Salamat dahil isa ako sa kinuha mong emcee noong nag 1st birthday si Summerita and of course kinuha mo akong Ninong ni Summerita na mahal na mahal ko ng sobra.
Nawa'y lumaki siya na katulad mo, masyadong matapang at masyadong matatag. Hindi rin naman kasi halata na ang dami-daming mong iniisip kaya tuloy sa paminsan-minsang labas natin, minsan aayaw ka, minsan ooo ka. Masaya pa naman kapag nasa loob tayo ng tricycle; tayong apat at ako ang nasa may pintuan at ikaw ang tagahawak ng bag ko. Maging matapang pa lalo dahil alam naman natin na ang buhay natin, may mga nakapilang mga problema. May mga pagkakataong hindi natin inaasahan na puwedeng mangyari. Good thing, you're taking it seriously but sunny. Magpakatatag pa lalo. Alam naman natin na hindi mo alam kung kailan ang uwi ni Pareng Onin pero kayanin mo pa, kapatid. Babalik naman si pare (sure na sure ako diyan!).
Julie Girl, happy happy birthday sa iyo. 27 ka na at 3 years na lang kailangan college professor ka na! Nakikita ko how much your kids love you, by simply calling you Mommy J or Nay J. Kahit si Summerita, alam ko na mamahalin ka niyan. Maraming salamat sa pagkakaibigan natin, na hindi na natin kailangan pang sukatin kung ilang taon na. Hanggang sa dulo ng walang hanggan, our friendship will surely stay forever! Thank you for accepting me as your weird, crazy and truest friend!
O siya, hanggang dito na lang ang aking friendly letter to you! I love you so much friend! And keep styling!!!
