Thinking of You

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go

I guess, second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him (her), I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if you were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter

Like a hard candy with a surprise center

How do I get better once I've had the best

You said there's tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He (She) kissed my lips, I taste your mouth

He (She) pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him (her), I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if you were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

'Cause when I'm with him (her), I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if you were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I was looking into your...

Your eyes, looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

Stay...

:(

Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you but I can't move

I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you but I can't move

I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around, I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you

There's so much I can't say

Do you want me to hide the feelings

And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around, I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me

And I'm wondering why I've waited so long

Looking back I realize

It was always there was never spoken

I'm waiting here

Been waiting here

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around, I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

Just so you know

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

Just so you know

Just so you know

:(

Try

If I walk, would you run?

If I stop, would you come?

If I say you're the one, would you believe me?

If I ask you to stay, would you show me the way?

Tell me what to say so you don't leave me

The world is catching up to you

While you're running away to chase your dream

It's time for us to make a move

Cause we are asking one another to change

And maybe I'm not ready

But I'll try for your love

I can hide up above

I will try for your love

We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song, would you sing along?

Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull

If I give you my heart, would you just play the part?

Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful

Am I catching up to you?

While you're running away to chase your dreams

It's time for us to face the truth

Cause we are coming to each other to change

And maybe I'm not ready

But I'll try for your love

I can hide up above

I will try for your love

We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love

I can hide up above

If I walk, would you run?

If I stop, would you come?

If I say you're the one, would you believe me?

:(

Sila

It's 1:11 am when I started writing this important blog for the both of them. Maybe I was inspired lang sa lahat ng mga nakikita ko sa Facebook dahil sa mga updates, tanging ang pangalan nilang dalawa ang nakikita ko at puros mga pictures nila ang naka-present. Pero nakikita ko naman how lovely they are and how happy they are being together.

In two days time, aalis na siya because she will work out of the country. Magiging mahirap sa akin, lalong-lalo na sa aking kaibigan na makita niya ang kanyang kasintahang aalis ng bansa na hindi siya kasama. Try to imagine, you're just only handling a two-month-old relationship and then the next thing that will happen was a long journey of long distance relationship. Tama, may Facebook, Twitter, Yahoo! Messenger, Skype, Viber at kung anumang mga social networking sites ang nauuso ngayon para magamit for constant communication. Pero, iba pa rin ang feeling kapag nandiyan lang sa tabi mo ang taong minamahal mo. Iba pa rin yung feeling na kapag may problema ka, all you have to do is to tell it to him or her. Iba pa rin yung feeling na magkasama kayo, holding hands at sasamahan mo pa ng matamis na halik sa noo o sa pisngi. After Monday, panibagong yugto sa kanilang dalawa, ang mamuhay ng mag-isa. Though they continue to love each other, sadly speaking, the absence is still there.

Huwag muna tayong magkaroon ng mga "bad vibes," and let's look back how they started to become one. Noong mga panahong magkasama pa sila sa isang department sa aming institution, they became an item of being an instant loveteam. Sabi nila, marami raw silang pagkakapareho. Sa kanilang course na lang, nandoon na, bachelor's degree ang kay girl, master's degree naman ang kay boy. Umabot din sa point na naging mag-terno sila ng damit unintentionally. Marahil, puwede naman pero hindi puwede. Si babae, may kasintahan. Si lalaki, kakagaling lang sa isang matinding problema at sakripisyo sa buhay. It seems that they were bounded but they chose to use the other path. Umabot din ng maraming araw, linggo, buwan at taon at talagang hindi na nangyari ang akala nilang tamang pagkakataon. The relationship of the girl has been great since then and the boy already fell in love with another. Kumbaga sa dalawang kotseng tiyempong nagkasabay sa kalye, lumiko sa kanan ang isa, lumiko sa kaliwa rin ang isa. They don't know if they will meet again soon in that road.

There were so many instances na nangyari sa buhay nila then on. Si babae, hindi na nag-work out ang akala niyang "till forever" na relationship. Si lalaki, naging achiever in his own right, pero hindi siya naging matagumpay sa isang bagay na sinubukan niya. By the time that the girl went back to her roots, doon na nagsimula ang lahat. Ang dalawang kotseng unang tiyempong nagkasabay sa kalye at naghiwalay, nag-krus muli ng landas at nagkasabay muli. Ganoon naman yata talaga kapag hindi ka pa sigurado sa mga nararamdaman mo. The girl was too hesitant, the boy was very sure with what he feels. In an everyday situation, siguro mahirap intindihin pero I just learned from their relationship that you shouldn't look for one, you have to wait for the perfect one. Ika nga sa pelikulang Forrest Gump, "Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're going to get!" Yung feeling na biglaan na lang, nagsama sila at nagkaroon ng isang pagkakataong hindi nila naiintindihan sa simula at nang dumating na ang panahon na heto na, wala na silang magagawa kung hindi ang maging masaya. They didn't expect much about the both of them. Katulad ng sinasabi nila, "it just happened!"

Ako, bilang kaibigang malapit nila, hindi ko lubusang maisip kung talaga bang puwede silang maging sila. Una, kasama ko sila sa aming "circle of friends." Pangalawa, nakilala ko sila kung paano sila magmahal at nakilala ko rin sila kung paano sila nasaktan. Ako, bilang kaibigan nila, of course, hindi ako naghahangad ng mga hindi magagandang bagay sa kanila. Pero siyempre, nandoon pa rin yung tipong natatakot ka na magkasakitan ang mga kaibigan mo dahil lamang sa hindi pagkakaunawaan. At ang huli, alam naman nilang dalawa kung gaano sila importante sa akin. Marami akong mako-consider na best friends pero isa sila sa mga taong lalapitan ko kung sakaling may kailangan ako. Naiisip ko naman na "if the need arises, just call me and I'll be there."

Sila. Yan ang tamang panghalip na bagay sa kanila. Sila means "they are together." Puwede ring "loving each other." Pero para sa akin ang pinaka-importante sa lahat, "they are trusting each other." Magiging halimbawa sila ng tinatawag na long distance relationship. Sa aking best friend forever, nagwowork, at sana sa kanila din. In my own belief, I can say that love is only at the first few chapters of a relationship, the next chapters down to the last is trust. How can you love someone if you lack trust. It will never move forward if what you only knew is to love and not to trust, that makes sense, right? Sa mga akbay na nakikita ko, sa mga ngiting nakikita ko, sana hindi lang dahil mahal niyo ang isa't isa kung hindi dahil pinagkakatiwalaan niyo ang isa't isa. Kung kailangang may magbago at willing i-let go kung ano ka noon, gawin mo. Love is needed but trust is required.

Natatandaan ko ang sinabi sa amin ng Values Education teacher ko noong high school na kung may hihilingin ka, huwag kang gagamit ng salitang "sana," dahil lahat ng hinihiling mo ay hanggang "sana" lang. Now, let's put in this way, magmahalan kayo ng wagas, sobra at lubusan. Don't treat each other as lovers, thus as the best of friends. Alam niyo kung gaano niyo kamahal ang isa't isa at kailangan ninyong ipakita sa buong mundo how much you love her and how much you love him, anupa't nasa magkabilang dulo kayo ng mundo. Kaya niyong paliitin ang mundo sa bawat pag-uusap ninyo, maiba man ang mga puwedeng maganap.

I am so proud with what you have right now, guys! Be happy everyday! Always be in love! And always have trust to each other!

Para sa iyo, Lyrize, mamimiss kita alam mo yan! Isang taon ka man physically wala dito sa amin lalo na kay Juanito, alam namin na through your voice and through your heart, you'll always be there! I'm telling you this, I can't wait for your next return here in 2013! Isipin na lang natin na mabilis lang ang isang taon kahit puwedeng may maraming mangyari, maganda man or hindi, hindi tayo magpapakaapekto! Mahalin mo ang kaibigan ko sa paraang kaya mo! Hahaha, ikaw na bahala, kaps!

Para sa iyo, Juanito, alam mo na! Nakita na kita kung paano ka magmahal at ipagpatuloy mo yan! Nabigo ka man noon, ngayon ang pagkakataon kung ano ang tamang gawin pagdating sa pag-ibig. At isa pa, be strong in almost everything and I mean everything! Ika nga ni Paulo Coelho, "Be brave. Take risks."

"One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving." - Paulo Coelho

Always be in love, kaps and dude!!!

Toodles!!!

The Return of The Brouhahas...

Yes, I missed it and I don't know if you've missed it. If you're not one of my latest counts (or readers) of my blog, then definitely you didn't miss my brouhahas. It's been so many days and weeks that I've never written a piece about what's happening with me. Pool of emotions have been felt these past few months that's why I did not write even a single brouhaha about me.

But then, after so it's here! Here are the list of things that had happened to me for a couple of weeks...

SCHOOL YEAR 2012-2013 is about to begin and I still don't have my prepared lesson plans for the first quarter in English 3 and 4. Yes, ladies and gentlemen! I am now part again of my first family, the Grade School Department. But before I positioned myself inside of our faculty lounge was a mouthful of heartache, pain, sorrow and even danger have been felt by myself, just for a single and simple wish: to be part again of Big School (also known as regular school!). And after a lot of pain that was given to me by those people, they gave me what I want. I don't know in what sense did they give it but what's important I am back with a vengeance. And also, lessons were learned with this scenario: I shouldn't expect too much in any aspect: career, love, friends and even your own self. I made a pact for myself that I will never do that again, not even close. New faces inside of our faculty lounge were seen and a new leadership by my dude (you know who you are, my friend!), it seems that the battleground for quality education in our institution and especially in our department is indeed amazing and brilliant! My mother even told me that I am going back to where I started, doing lesson plans and quizzes and so much more. I just say, I'm just returning to where I really loved the most.

DAANG HARI is love! My beloved idol on radio said that whenever she has problems facing on, what she does is she thinks, contemplates and answers her problems while driving. Indeed, driving is one way of de-stressing yourself with problems and other things that might need you to think of. For the past weeks, I've been thinking so many things in which I don't understand why was this happening. My friend told me that I need to find time for myself and therefore, I thought of going out with my car and raced myself all the way to Daang Hari. In Metro Manila, this is one of my most favorite roads to drive in. Beautiful landscape, less traffic woes and very provincial and quiet in nature, that's Daang Hari. If I will always bring my car with me to school, before going home I'll be trying to drive here and feel the simplicity of its beauty or whatever it has on its every kilometer or mile. And don't you forget to check out the newest branch of McDonald's. My whole gang had been there once and we knew we'll surely return there!

STREET FOODS might be thought by everyone that they were prepared without sanitation. But hey! The mosquitoes and other kinds of viruses and bacteria can flavor it more (just kidding, of course!). Here in the Philippines, I could say that I have the top three street foods that I want to eat, isaw or chicken intestines skewed in barbecue sticks, kwek kwek or fried quail eggs covered with orange goo and calamares or fried squid, also skewed in barbecue sticks. Whenever I eat them, it brings so much joy to me. I can call them my "comfort foods" but it's not always I eat them when I am weary. For as long as I thought that I want to try, I will go to the nearest street food stand and I'll be getting one! For isaw, if ever I smelled the smoke from the griller, most probably it will be an isawan. If there are so many people piling up a store, there must be a side car with kwek kwek or tokneneng as their product. And in near Manila City Hall (sorry, but I need to traverse the road to Manila), I can have a chance to taste the calamares also with side cars! Yes, they could be dangerous to our health, but who can resist the taste, right?

I love it when VICE GANDA says his current famous expression: PEEEEBEEEEBEEEE TEEEEEENNNNSSSSS!!! And yes, the kids of PBB Teen Edition 4 has "something-something" in their lives. I don't believe that the kids are all emotional when it comes to expressing what they feel inside of them. I believe that today's generation of youth are articulate and aggressive in their decision, especially in love. Imagine, for just one week of being together inside the Big Brother house and seeing each other for the whole day, they've been feeling something to the other, for just one week! How aggressive! Yes, you might take it against me but that's what I have observed! So we can't blame Vice Ganda making this expression a national treasure, PEEEEBEEEEBEEEE TTTEEEEEENNNNNNSSSSS!!! My best buddy and I take it as a good kind of humor. For instance, whenever there is a quick happiness of our certain friend because of aggressiveness, we say it with PEEEEEBEEEEEBEEEEE TEEEEEENNNNNNSSSS!!! Example: marunong lang mag-swimming, kinikilig na, ano 'to PEEEEEBEEEEBEEEE TEEEEENNNNNNSSSSS!!! Another example: porket mag-jowa na, kailangan binabakod na (another term for putting one's arm into the other person's shoulder or akbay), ano 'to PEEEEBEEEEBEEEE TEEEEEENNNNNSSSSS!!! So... Porket nakaka-8,300 views ka na, sikat ka na, ano 'to PEEEEBEEEEBEEEE TEEEEENNNNNNSSSSSS!!!

The ST. JOSEPH PARISH in Las Pinas is my newest discovery! Thanks to my newest partner, she explained to me so hard about the church and also her school, ST. JOSEPH ACADEMY. Yesterday, she became our instant tour guide showing to us her alma mater. She even remembers her previous classrooms and the whereabouts of it. I was pretty unsure with the security of the school because they let the outsiders go inside of the school, but anyways we're different because an alumna of SJA is with us. The whole structure of the school reminds me of the Philippine Normal University, because of its timeless beauty, classic yet sophisticated and of course, quaint and simple! The windows are with capiz shells which reminds me of old days that the city of Las Pinas still embarks. Most of the classrooms still not having air conditioned and they maintained it until today. I loved their grade school grounds because it was like you are on a maze. Good thing that we went to the grounds of SJA minus the students because it was their dismissal time. Afterwards, we went to the high school building and I saw their classrooms. It really has a feel of old school corridors but really steep and high. We went to the rooftop and I saw the majestic view of Manila Bay, Makati and Taguig skyline and Paranaque. We went also to their auditorium and it has a spooky feel because the lights were closed. After the trip, we went outside of the school and my friend gave us a taste of another street food called proven or chicken gizzard. And then, we went to the hear mass at exactly 6:00 in the evening. The other purpose of going to St. Joseph Parish was to listen to the world-famous Bamboo Organ but that time, it was not being used so it made me a bit disappointed. It was my first time to go to St. Joseph so I made a wish, and that wish is known exclusively by myself! Hehehe!

I always don't forget to put a SMILE in my face. And with that smile, it makes me HAPPY. Yes, you might wonder why am I happy? Somebody is putting a smile in my face. And yes, you might ask who is responsible for this. Secret of course! If things are okay and the time is perfect, I'll be giving you details but not as grand as what you're expecting. As what they say, mahirap na baka maging bato pa! And for this, I am thanking you for your job to me, putting a warm smile on my face and on my life (o-ha!!!)

Here you go my dear friends, colleagues and readers, my brouhaha for this week! Thank you so much for spending your time reading my posts which can make you realize one thing, it's so fun to write and so fun to read my brouhahas!

Good luck to me and to my colleagues for a new beginning of school year! And to you, :)

Toodles!!!

Anong Hanap Mo???

This blog post is not supported by a well-known Internet site that is used to buy and sell pre-owned goods. I'm just wanting to use their tag line because I am looking for something exclusively for myself.

Weird?!?! That's me. I'm loving to be a melodramatic one thinking of the things that I'm not supposed to think and I'm not supposed to get into. I'm making my life into a whirlwind one, a sort of complicated one and I think I like it. And yes, I'm weird!

First of, I'm looking for a certain job that will be my source of "extra" income. But because of my so-called "busy schedule," I can't look for one. Though I already found one, I never did anything for it. Meaning, I'm no longer interested. It seems that I'm just waiting for an opportunity to come and not to come with the opportunity (get it?). I wanted to save money for my future use. Just like my good friend always says, "we're no longer getting any younger" and I'm scared for that. This year, I'll be 25 and for the last year four years of my life as part of the labor department, I never had a single centavo being saved for me. So I decided to refurbish my resume and give it to the companies that might need my professional service. But until now, nobody is calling, nobody is making a try to accept me. Of course, you would tell me that I should not "lose hope" but I think I am right now! I'm still waiting for the perfect time. No buts, please! Good things or even the best things come to those who patiently waits!

I'm looking for my future. I'm getting lost with the two roads I am facing right now. I'm still deciding if I will continue another year in my present institution and after so, go to another institution or my time to challenge myself working and living away from my family and my country. In short, working abroad as a teacher of course! But another road is waiting for me step on, my master's degree. I'm working on my next phase of my "student" life and that is studying for my master's degree in English. I'm wanting to teach in college because I want to make my profession more of a professional one. I like to ask my students to do this and to pass that and what I will do is just give them a grade. Yes, I'm more of a facilitator, not just a plain teacher. I'm not sure with the school I'm going to enroll in but I'll make sure it is one of the best in the country. But we will go back to my first query, since I don't have extra income, how will I shoulder the expenses of my studies, aber?


This would probably the most exciting part of my blog post, I'm looking for someone that I will consider as my special one. Let's not put this into a more precise or more detailed one but this might be a passe, I'm no longer getting any younger and fresher (hahaha!). I remember the time my friend way back in high school asked me if I have any plans of getting married or creating a family of my own. I said wholeheartedly "No!" She told me that I shouldn't stick to that and close my door to anything about love. For the longest time, I've been looking for the perfect partner but it seems nobody is interested. Maybe there were some but I never felt it. Yes, I used to like someone but it seems that person never saw me as a partner but only as a friend. Right now, somebody is putting a smile on my face but I'm not sure if that person is the one perfect for me? I don't want to make myself sure of that person because I still feel I'm not totally prepared. I am so sure that I will love the person more than what that person is expecting. Both of us will be very happy facing any problems and still very happy fixing it and again, so much happy being together. If you are the one, let's go and start our new phase of our lives, if you will let me be the one?

Now with these things that I'm looking for right now, are you still thinking I'm weird? Maybe you are also feeling the same way or the same thing. What's important for us is to feel ourselves complete. All I have to do is to pray, and the prayer is the most powerful weapon against danger and loss.

How about you, anong hanap mo???


Toodles!!!

The Grade School Experience

Few days from now, another round of school year is about to begin. And to tell you, as of this writing, I'm not yet prepared. Everything will be done in an easy way but of course, being thought for at least a thousand times. Monday, 4th of June, I'll be decorating my entire classroom and as of this writing, again, I still don't know what's my advisory class. Tuesday, 5th of June, I'll be passing all of the documents including my resume, transcript of records and other important stuffs. Wednesday, 6th of June, aside from going to Baclaran because it is first Wednesday, I need to check all of my things if I'm done! I need to wait for Saturday, 9th of June for our annual company outing in Los Banos (I think?). And my grade school experience will begin shortly, and that's Wednesday, 13th of June (a day right after our Independence Day!).

And yes, after a year of stint in the SpEd Department, I am now back with a vengeance in my original home, called the Grade School. New faces, new leadership and new experiences will come on my way as I start my school year right. I really don't know what's in store for me. New problems, new dilemmas and new inquiries from parents will be faced again. I am too much excited because I'll be handling younger kids (3rd and 4th graders) but a bit nervous because I knew myself how to handle them. I made a pact with myself that I will no longer be the Incredible Hulk to my students every time I don't like what they're doing. I'm just going to love them as my kids and not as my enemies or whoever they are! I want to forget the things that I've done in my last two years in Grade School before transferring to SpEd. I just want to make everything okay and alright, no more problems and no more hesitations. And yes, no more thinking of quitting.

I don't know how to begin my first day of classes on the 18th of June. Am I going to look like a funny guy, making fun of myself just to let my kids know me even better? Am I going to be as strict as a soldier knowing my kids well? Or am I just over-acting? I have better plans for my first day since I already have my class program but I don't know how to win the hearts of my kids. Yet, I'm too much excited to see them and to see them as a regular school teacher. I will no longer thinking of reprimands and disciplines with my kids because just one word and they're all well-behaved (I supposed!). I will no longer looking for some kids roaming around not only in our building but around the school. And I will no longer thinking of what to do next because I really feel lazy every time I'm seeing my kids doing nothing and making themselves busy chatting. Just one phrase coming from my mouth, everybody will get it and follow it. And I am so excited for that!

Of course, a school year will never be great without facing trials and challenges. Inside of our faculty, there would be lots of intense expressions but anyways, its part of professionalism. There will be new challenges waiting for us; some of it will be announced and others might be unannounced. But as a real, professional teacher, challenges will surely be done with ease and of course, if it can, with professional taste. Inside of our classroom, there will be challenges for the students, passing all of the requirements, answering worksheets, homework, quizzes, long tests and examinations. The noises and interrupting scenes will be created by the students which will make my head turn into its anger state. But as what I've promised, I shouldn't! And of course, who could forget the sweetness of the kids and you know what I mean!

School Year 2012-2013 marks my return to the big screen, and that's my return to big school. I've had gone for just one year, thinking of it as my resting stage, and with that I've learned so much! I can't wait for this year because a new kind of experience will be on its way. I don't know what is it, or how is it, and even when is it but I know in my heart that this school year will possibly be the best school year in my entire teaching career. Well, hopefully it is!

See you soon, my future students!!!

And toodles!!!